2.14.2009

Bummed

Derick moved to be with Dad barely 1 month and a half ago. I talk to him on the phone almost every single day. I miss the kid.

Last week we talked about him coming home for the summer and he said he was going to come here for the whole summer and I was all sorts of excited because there's that missing him business. I mentally planned hiking at this cool new place that's close to our house by the lake, Six Flags, lost of walks around the neighborhood, playing outside with both kids and just generally hanging out. In my head it was going to be perfect and I was pumped.

Now I'm just feeling beat down. He just called me and said that his Dad has plans for them this summer and he thinks he'd like to just come home for "10 days". I get 10 days and that's it. I can't force him to stay if he doesn't want to, but it sure does make me feel like I don't matter as much as his Dad.

Bummed to the 100Th degree.

9 comments:

Raven said...

*HUG*

It's so hard to be in that place. Everything is so new yet and it's easy for him to want to go with it; I know that doesn't really make it easier to bear though.

UGH. I so feel for you honey.

Elizabeth said...

Urgh. It sounds terrible. I don't think I would be handling it nearly as well as you are - my heart goes out to you. It sounds really really hard. But I have to believe that some day he's going to come around and want to spend time with his kick ass mom again.

TUWABVB said...

I'm so sorry sweetie! I know nothing will make this feel better, but I think Raven's right - everything is so new and exciting to him right now. Give it some time - he may feel different come summer. ((HUGS)).

MommaMo said...

That stinks. It might be how he feels now, trying to figure out how things fall in his life. He will always love you and you will always be his awesome mom. The best thing to do is to truly appreciate the time together, even if it may be short for the first time through. Much love!

Abbie said...

Ouch. Big ouch. :( I'm really sorry. I hope those plans can be a little flexible and give you more time!

Ms. R said...

Aaaaawww. What a bummer. Hang in there!

M said...

i.love.you.

if you need me, you know what to do.

x to the o

DoodleBunz/DB Impressions said...

I'm so sorry Kristie...I hope he changes his mind, at least for a few more days.

Sarah said...

oh my goodness that is so rough. Sorry hon Internet hug sent your way!